A personal journal / 2026—

Nearness

A small archive for staying sane near the edge of thought.

We feel most alive when we are closest to impermanence. We invest ourselves in people, memory, friendship, family, books, poetry, and machines, knowing that each may save us or tear us apart.

Then we meet computers: quiet portals of possibility. In lonely nights, they become less like tools and more like companions for thought. This is an attempt to keep the mind alive, preserve fragments of memory, and keep our computers close enough to speak back.

The archive, unfolding

Latest entries

2 August 2026 6 min min read EN

Wages of Sin

A soul descends toward the valley of peace and discovers that darkness is not the absence of beauty, but one of its oldest and most intimate forms.

5 July 2026 4 min min read EN / اردو

I Am Cooking Sadness

A first-person fragment about cooking sadness in a hostel room while home, music, books, and darkness return like old ghosts.

4 July 2026 5 min min read EN / اردو

Monsters of Their Own Making

A first-person reflection on being young inside systems we did not build, yet are blamed for failing to survive.

15 June 2026 2 min min read EN

Night Over the Throat

A sleepless night between debugging models and forgetting the body.

15 June 2026 1 min min read EN / اردو

Serene Joys of Tragedy

A meditation on homeland, inherited fire, and the quiet collapse of meaning in a restless city.

15 June 2026 3 min min read EN

The Hoax of Original Thought

On originality, silence, forbidden knowledge, and the strange corridors where thought begins to dissolve.

15 June 2026 1 min min read EN

Of a Thousand Reasons to Cry

On cycles of suffering, fragile hope, and the strange persistence of life.

15 June 2026 5 min min read EN

Wages of Sin

A feverish prose fragment on corrupted systems, divine punishment, broken faith, and the crooked hope that survives inside ruin.